Posted by: atarimonos | January 23, 2010

Back … sort of.

I’m working on living.

Having returned to America (genitive absolute), I am not so proud to announce my continued unemployment. Globetrotting is a fantastic way to spend one’s time … but it turns addictive. Since returning I’ve taken a few short jaunts outside my home State. All were delightful in their particulars, but nothing quite like being in a country where English is lacking and the best vocabulary you’ve got is a smile accompanying wild gesticulations. I’d definitely enjoy returning to backpacking.

Home is home. Family is here, something I’ve missed something fierce during my time abroad. Returning home is a combination of returning to reality and illusion. I haven’t been able to parse one from the other yet. I assume that this is what the rest of my life will center on. Yet one more sisyphean task. I’m comfortable with that fact, but unsure how to proceed. Do I rush out for more international travels, embracing the life of permanent ex-pat? Do I stay local and attempt to find work? Do I travel the U.S. searching for “something else”? When you don’t have a particular goal in mind decisions become a lot more difficult.

American politics leaves me wanting for change and ashamed of finger pointing, yelling, and genuine double-speak (on both sides of the aisle). From recent Supreme Court rulings on corporate funding for elections, the “party of no”, and “the party of appeasement” … none of them give me much hope. The only thing left to rely on is our (plural) own common sense … and even that is a questionable foundation.

I’d like to work with community conversation, particularly if I could snag a job working at the international level … something with travel, I would not mind. For the time being, if my work took me further afield than the City limits. I’m religious (whatever that means) and would even more enjoy participating in the burgeoning conversation of religion’s place in the public. On this topic, I err towards one of private faith and devotion. I’m not too keen on the whole proselytizing bit. Color me progressive. But I would like person of all stripes, beliefs, and persuasions to sit down for a nice/mature chat on the topic. Something tells me we, as a species/nation/communities, will never get to a point where that’s even possible … let along probable. This is a thought that makes me pretty said and disappointed. Color me a cynic.

So here we are and here we go.

To where. To what. I do not know.



  1. welcome to my world! i’m looking for the same job, so i’ll let you know what i come up with. you wanna study for the foreign services exam with me? πŸ™‚

  2. Any road will do.
    β€œOne day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. Which road do I take? she asked. Where do you want to go? was his response. I don’t know, Alice answered. Then, said the cat, it doesn’t matter.”

    I’ve been trying to heed this too…

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